Just Taking Each Day As It Comes

Hi friends and fellow Bloggers.

You have all probably been thinking that I have dropped of the surface of the Earth. Well almost, but not quite ;-)



It's been a quite while since I have written in my blog. Well it's because I broke all my fingers. Hmmm somehow I don't think anyone is going to fall for that ! However I did have a nasty fall recently coming out of my shower (it's situated in our bath). I still have a fairly tender and bruised collarbone as a result of it. Was a horrible experience to have happened :(

I'm quietly sitting here not knowing what I should actually write in this post to explain why I have been MIA..

There's a part of me that feels I must try to write mostly happy and positive things in my posts. We all prefer to read blogs that are inspiring and uplifting. It's human nature too....

But personal Blogging is supposed to be about our lives, the good, the bad and the ugly. I don't think there would be too many people that lead perfectly happy and sane lives every day of their lives (even if they have us fooled they do !) . Ok maybe the Buddhist Monks do ! ;-)

It clearly evident in most of my posts that I have been quite sad and depressed for some time now about my life. Don't get me wrong, I am more than grateful for what I do have in my life. I could have had it a million times worse ! For this reason, I prefer to stay away, and hide in my own little world when I am going through my depressive episodes. People have enough of their personal dramas going on, without having to read about mine also .. There's only so much whinging a person can do without them sounding like a stuck record !

I guess it's a bit like choosing a movie to watch, most of us prefer to watch something comical or uplifting, rather than the teary sad ones that have leave you in tears, and feeling emotionally drained .. I know I do ! :)

So I have purposely chosen not to blog while I am feeling really down. At such times, I am going through an episode, I am often very vague and confused, and I can not even put together a string of sentences that would make much sense to me, let alone to you all LOL

It is my Tinnitus that causes me the most grief. Unlike other things that come and go (and can be treated), tinnitus stays with you 24/7 (if you suffer with the severe form of it). There is never any clear head space away from it. You can never escape from it ! It is the one of the worse forms of invisible condition that you could find yourself ever a victim of! I live for the day there is some cure for it !!!! The trouble is it's mostly (and not in every case) to do with the signals in your brain, therefore there is not much that can be done about it, yet . I have been reading about some trials that are going on overseas, which are fairly controversial at the moment, but maybe it will get us closer to finding answers/a cure for it ? I do hope so. I always try to believe in hope and miracles !!

I have started seeing a psychiatrist, that visits our little country town. Unfortunately she is very booked out, and I have to wait 4 weeks to see her again !! (unless there is a cancellation before then).
She is not an expert on tinnitus, but I am hoping she maybe be able to teach me some skills in coping with it, and learning to live permanently with it .. If that is what I am faced with for the rest of my life.

I have a few other issues going on as well, which I have blogged about in the past, so I won't go on about them again .

I would like to say a big Thankyou to everyone who has left comments in my blog posts over the last few months in my absense. I sincerly apologize for not having kept up with your posts , and leaving you comments also. I won't make any empty promises about trying to make up for my lost time, but I will do my best to go and visit your blogs when I am able too. Each day is different for me, some days I wake up feeling bright and very cheery and can conquer the world, and other days, I can barely make it through the whole day.

I appreciate everyone's visits and lovely comments. Please do not think they go unnoticed, I read them all.

So you are probably wondering what has Jules been up to? it can't be all doom and gloom in her life, surely not ! LOL

Ok so I'll list some things that I have been up too, or hoping to get up to soon ! :)

*My husband and I recently attended a doggyfest fundraiser event with our dogs, to help raise money for the SunBears in Asia. It was a very wet and cold day, but despite not many people turning up, the ones that did had fun with their dogs, meeting other people, and we did manage to raise some money to help the sunbears wohooo ! I might do a post later with some pics from the day..

*Oh we are getting a new (second hand) table and 6 chairs this weekend ! Ok it's exciting for me LOL.
We have only ever had a small kitchen table, and altho we rarely get visitors, it will be so much better to have more room for them to eat at when they do come over ! The hard part will be finding room in our small house for it ! ;-)
It's just a fairly plain type one, and the table is laminated, but the chairs are upholstered quite nicely!
I have plans to change the colour of the table eventually! It's a light honey colour atm, which I am not overly keen on. I am not sure if to do it ultra funky and paint it red (hehe), or stain it a darker brown colour, which we prefer. Will decide on that later.
I will post a pic of it when after we get it on Saturday. :)
I will need to do some before and after shots. The kitchen table we currently are using, I am hoping to convert it to a craft/hobby table for the scrapbooking I rarely get around to doing (because I can never leave all my stuff on the table for the next time, when we need to use our table )

*I am about to start creating a hardcopy journal for my one and only neice (I will do a post about it later). I am feeling quite excited about this project !

Ok well I haven't been up to too much as you can tell, but I didn't want to leave this post on a 'Woe is me' note :)

Hope you have all been keeping well?

Much love to you all !

Oh and I have a gorgeous photo to share with you all that I will add to my Photo Blog , so feel free to go check it out soon.